Oh No This Can't Be Happening {Open}

[♥Angel♥]

Several days have come and gone since that terrible event. All her minor wounds where healed. But the worse where still healing. But that wasn't what worried her. No what worried Crescentmoon was the fact that her stomach was getting larger and she really wasn't eating more than usual. She recognized the signs from other queens. She was pregnant. She remembered that Foxstar had told her one of the birds told him Thorn had raped her. And now she was carrying his kits. She felt sick. Crescentmoon ran out of medicine cats den and into the dirt place where she threw up her breakfast. Why did everything bad happen to her. Her mother hated her and tried to kill her. And just when she found happiness she's attacked by a rouge and now she is carrying his kits. Tears where streaming down her face. Once the clan found out they would make her step down as soon as a new apprentice could be trained.

Crescentmoon padded out of dirt place tunnel and towards Foxstar's den. Her head hung low and her tail dragged in the dirt. She scraped at the entrance and sighed. "Foxstar are you in there? I need to talk to you. It's very important."

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[atrb=background,http://i48.tinypic.com/9v9hj6.jpg] Foxstar had been thinking, he had been thinking a lot these past few days, and it seemed almost as if he had too much time on his paws. After the events of the assault a few days ago, the clan had been asking intense questions, ones where he could not answer them. Foxstar had been stressed out ever since then, but he had kept his same happy attitude pretending that nothing was wrong, in his little world, of covering up the side of him that was a cold ruthless killer. Foxstar only smiled at the questions and made a game out of them within the clan. Though others questioned it, Foxstar could never let it slip by him in the reality that he faced. The fiery tom sat in his den, his paws covering his face, as the light filtered through the trunk as a small window, when the light filtered on his bright fur, it lightened it up. Foxstar flicked his tail, until he heard something at the base of his den. He couldn't say he didn't want to talk, obviously it wasn't a factor he was allowed to face at the moment. When the voice and scent hit him, he realized it was Crescentmoon, what else did she have to say. Foxstar didn't want to push her away, well quiet frankly he did a little in these stressful moments, it was like Starclan was telling him something, the same as that night. Foxstar took in a deep breath, feeling it fill his lungs as he let it go. "Come in Crescentmoon" He meowed. Crescentmoon had been the victim, and what Foxstar had been told from Talon the sparrow, some things were yet to go wrong. Thorn was now on the blacklist, of the most fearful tom that could be alive when it came to revenge. Though lived to believe he killed his own family, Foxstar could not help but to feel, it was his duty almost as a starclan messenger to smite others. Foxstar brigthened his fire colored eyes and lifted his head away from his paws. As he watched the she-cat enter, he wondered what she wanted to talk with him about. It was best not to let stress get to him, not always did he think about things like this, only when events listened to him with it came, the regret set. Yet, with a promise it seemed the leader still had his wits pressed against him in every which way. 414|| Words Meh||Muse none||Music Crescentmoon/anyone||Tagged

[♥Angel♥]

Crescentmoon took in a deep breath and tried to raise her head and tail. But the fear weighed them down. When he called her to enter. Her soft blue eyes filled with fear and worry. She didn't know how she could break such news to her leader let alone her clan. Finally she stepped into his den her black striped tail still dragging against the dusty ground. Her head hanging low still. She could tell he wanted to be alone the feelings coming off of him in waves where not surprising to her. She could feel anger hatred and several other emotions coming from him. But those two where the strongest. "I'm sorry to disturb you Foxstar. But I have come to tell you some terrible news." She took a deep breath tears running down her muzzle again. Why Starclan why where you punishing me so much? Why do you hate me? Haven't I served you faithfully since coming here? I have done everything you have ever asked and more in caring for my clan even though i was not born here. "Foxstar I think I'm pregnant." There I said it, it was finally out and there was no taking it back. "Once I find a proper apprentice I will step down from my duties. I think it is best I no longer be a medicine cat."

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[atrb=background,http://i48.tinypic.com/9v9hj6.jpg] Foxstar couldn't think for a moment as the words hit him, then he remembered, she was an empathy reader wasn't she. The leader tried not to let it bother him much as it wafted through his worry, changing into a calm reassurance of what the reality of the situation was. His tail flicked as she spoke, why was she so uptight, of course, there was the problem of the clan. Yet, he could settle that easily, as he got up he came close to her ear. The smile he had was decieving, but the look was all the same to anyone in the clan. "Why should you be worried, kits are the future of the clan, weather the father was a culprit or not, lives brought into this world, are brought with reason. Starclan will never put a pebble in your path you cannot pass." He whispered these words. Whispered them with a meaning as ever with any. As the leader hopped out of his den, he jumped onto a high branch, where he looked at the cats of his clan, he would have to notify Tigerstorm later, as he then jumped down once more and returned to his den, he sat in the corner, and patted the ground, for Crescentmoon to sit there. "I'll tell you something Crescentmoon, and I'll tell it to you once, so you mustn't forget it." It was something that the cat couldn't possibly forget. Foxstar knew perfectly well what the clan would question. How would the kits take it? Knowing their father was a killer, knowing they were brought upon this world, only by chance, for the benefit of the doubt, upon the genes they received on a ghostly night. Foxstar knew what it would be like for them, a living hell, for the kits to grow up, with evil glares, as for their colors, for being born of a medicine cat. So, a lie would protect so many simple lives. Foxstar lowered his head as his eyes flickered, this wasn't something to laugh at was it, but he still would. As he watched the she-cat, he looked at this entracne then back at her. "Promise me, you will not cry, and you will not give up after I tell you this" Foxstar stated, in a clear tone as he had ever been in. 389|| Words High||Muse none||Music Crescentmoon/anyone||Tagged

[♥Angel♥]

[atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=width,500,true][atrb=border,0,true][bg=90742f] Crescentmoon lowered her head and sighed. "Yes I know that Foxstar but we Medicine Cats are forbidden to have mates or kits. From the time I was a kitten I dreamed of being a medicine cat. And now I must step down. Maybe Starclan never meant for me to be a medicine cat. Why else would they punish me so?" These kits where unwanted. And they put an end to everything she loved. But even though she didn't want her kits she would love them and care for them. Something her mother never did for her. She would be there for her kits during the good times and especially the bad times. Maybe one of her kits ill become a medicine cat someday. She would teach her kits all the herbs. Even if they didn't become a medicine cat it could be useful for them to know at least a few herbs. Crescentmoon looked up at Foxstar and blinked. "Tell me what Foxstar?" What was he talking about? Had she missed something while she was thinking about the kits? No she didn't think so. Maybe he was about to say something. Foxstar I can't promise you that. The next two moons are going to be hard for me. I know I'll cry from time to time maybe even become angry. So please don't make me promise something I don't know if I can keep it." He could never know what it feels like to be attacked and be inches from death and than find out while you where unconscious that the cat that almost killed you raped you as well. The feeling was disheartening. And she hoped no clan cat ever had to go through that again. She felt sick just thinking about it. A single tear ran down her muzzle. She shook her head and looked Foxstar in the eyes. "Foxstar do you know how it is to feel so scared and angry and depressed all in one. I have so many emotions rolling through my body I can't even control my powers any more. I haven't been able to summon a gust of wind since that day. As for my empathy. That comes and goes. I hate feeling this way. I wouldn't wish for any cat to go through what I've gone through not even my worst enemy. Though that does not include Thorn. I hope he feels every bit of what he did to me and more." 429 :WORD COUNT You like my new table for Crescentmoon? And wow this is the most I've ever done for one cat before. :NOTES Foxstar :FOR High :MUSE Not On Your Love bye Jeff Carson :MUSIC

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[atrb=background,http://i48.tinypic.com/9v9hj6.jpg] Foxstar listened to Crescentmoon, he was a little disappointed. The tom thought about it for some time now. The scar on his burnt ears was to prove his pain, when it naturally came down to it Tigerstorm and him were more of a conspiracy then anything else. The dark shadowy figure that had appeared that night in the rain. When he witness his brother, and his father burn alive, to a crisp. Their bodies like burnt spiders laying on the ground, it was hard to even tell it was them, but Foxstar knew better then to mistake them for other cats. He remembered the feeling of despair, of being utterly lost, and not knowing what the clan would think. Foxstar had been in a state where he didn't know what to do, and most of all he was angry at himself all together. All the mixed feeling that he had, if Tigerstorm hadn't shown up and made that promise with him, he probably would have gone insane. Foxstar looked at the edge of the den for a moment, his eyes dropped, if she wasn't going to listen, he would need to be the serious tom that he never wanted to be around any of his clan mates. As he finally let out a big sigh, he eyes turned to Crescentmoon, in all of compassion of what he could tell, in all the world could offer, the cruelty that it blends on all cats, it wasn't something he ever wanted to look at considering his past. His red eyes flickered, "You look me in the eyes, and tell me that I haven't felt alone, haven't felt the put of despair in my life, and broken down into little bits onto the abyss, to the point where I almost didn't return." He meowed quietly, a tear forming at the end of his eye. And what did his future hold for him? The reason he didn't use his fire power, the reason he was always afraid. As the wafting emotions were meant for Crescentmoon to feel. Meant for her, to know of a secret best kept alone at wish. "I didn't slip because I made a promise, and I'll make this same promise for you Crescentmoon, no matter what, you can't falter, a promise is more then a bonding of words, it's a vow, and a bond that is kept at the heart." Foxstar cleared his throat and looked Crescentmoon in the eye. "These kits are yours, no others, not thorns, not starclans, they are yours and yours alone. And no matter what, I've seen what a mother is like, you are to protect these kits so they have a bright future. Crescentmoon, you cannot cry in front of these kits, because we need to make them believe that their world, is as perfect as ever. It may not be, but it's better then what their father did deserve. Events that occur, they strengthen a cat, or they kill them, are you dead? I don't think so. This is a begging request from me Crescentmoon, please, just, give these kits a chance they may have never had out in the wild." Foxstar told her, he was at her feet, but his head pressed against her chest, will all the feelings of sincerity. He promised himself he wouldn't cry, as sadness welled within his memories, he hated to see his clan in pain, and when he couldn't even save his own soul, what else was there to do? He couldn't always look for Starclan, the answers were not always there, and in the end, they stood were their strength could hold them, and a lot more could end up breaking them. "What I'm asking is, promise me, no matter what happens, even though things look grim, you won't break. You'll continue on, and whenever you need it, you can lean on me Crescentmoon. You have no idea how hard it is, to see my clan in pain." Foxstar still kept his head still. He felt a stab in his heart about the future. He always dreamt of having his own family, but he forbid himself, for of his malicious dark side. Something the clan could never find out about. What a secret can be kept, and what a secret can be hold The voice in the back of his head always told him, Foxstar dug his claws into the dirt. This couldn't be happening all at once, but he wasn't going to let his clan suffer, even if it was for one litter, they could create a reality, so they could grow strong. Shadowclan, they were dark on the outside, but they were a family all in the same. 783|| Words High||Muse Safe and sound- Taylor Swift||Music Crescentmoon/anyone||Tagged

[♥Angel♥]

[atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=width,500,true][atrb=border,0,true][bg=90742f] Crescentmoon sniffed and raised her head and looked Foxstar in the eyes as he told her to. She could see pain, anger and sorrow in them. She had heard his parents where killed. But she didn't know how. He knew sadness and anger. But surely he didn't know what it was like to be afraid of her own shadow. She was constantly looking behind he afraid to see Thorn sneaking up on her again. Or how it felt to be defiled and be carrying kits that belonged to the one that defiled you. She shook her head making her tears splatter on the ground. Though he did know pain. And may be the only one who even came close to knowing how she felt. Wait what did he mean? Slip about what? Did he mean by leaving and never returning? If so than maybe she was wrong about him not knowing how she felt. A promise? What promise was he talking about? These kits where hers alone. Yes and she would make sure they where loved. They would never know how it felt to have their mother try and kill them. No they would know only love from her. "But what if one of them looks like him? I don't think I could stand looking at it the kit. For it would remind me every day about what happened that day. But I promise you this not one of them will ever be treated the way my mother treated me. I will show only love towards them even if one of them looks like Thorn. I will hide my true feelings towards him or her. And if I ever need to get away I'll will request one of the queens watch them for me so I can get away. They will never ever see me cry in front of them." Yes they deserved a good life. It wasn't their fault that Thorn did to me what he did. It was just pure bad luck about what happened. "Tell me Foxstar how come you didn't scent him that day when we where collecting catmint?" She had to know how he hadn't scented him. He had been there watching them the whole time he had said so while he tortured her before blackness took hold of her. What had happened to him that hurt him so bad. She had never seen this side of her leader before. She was starting to think this was their real leader and the other half was just a disguise. "I will promise the kits will have a great life and a loving mother. Something I never had as a kit. I will not do what my mother did to me. All I request in return is you tell me what happened to you and why you disguise your true self behind a mask." 490 :WORD COUNT none :NOTES Foxstar :FOR high:MUSE "One Man Disney Movie" Nick Pitera Disney Medley Music Video :MUSIC

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[atrb=background,http://i48.tinypic.com/9v9hj6.jpg] Foxstar looked at Crescentmoon for a quick second, well what kind of mess did he drag himself into now. The secret was one kept only to Tigerstorm and the events as to the adults who had held witnessed. Though Crescentmoon already knew half the story. He stepped back and flicked his tail, how did he know he could trust Crescentmoon, how could he know for sure, that the cat in front of him wouldn't stab him in the back. Foxstar shook his head and took a deep sigh, he guess he would try his luck with it. "What I am about to tell you, does NOT leave this den, understand" He hissed at the back of his throat. He was being serious, if she told anyone, he would silence her, weather she was carrying kits or not, his dark side, kept itself hidden, for a reason. He was a Shadowclan cat after all. "My mentor when I was an apprentice, wasn't exactly the best. Those times when I came into the medicine cat den with burns and scrapes, more often then not, they were punishment from my mentor, rather then just 'accidents' as he foresaw them as. I tried to tell my brother, but he just wouldn't listen, and when my mentor called me useless, it only dragged me over the edge, he told me I would never be as strong as my mother was, when I didn't even know her, all me and my brother had to go off of was my fathers stories. That same night, I tried to prove to my mentor, I was strong, I could control my fire element. But, when my brother and father found out, they tried to stop me. I, messed up, caused an explosion. My brother, my father, they didn't survive, and my ears were permanently burned. I killed them, my only family, because I had let my mentor get to me,they were burned alive, I could hear their screams, I could feel their pain just from watching them. Tigerstorm, she came to me, she told me, this wouldn't end well, so we made a promise. As long as I kept as I was, she would make sure my dark side didn't get out off hand. After that, I decided to go on with my brothers dream, become leader like he wanted to be.Yet, there's a ruthless killer on the inside, one that shows no mercy, none to anyone, not even his own family. Because, I was the one who killed them, weather it was an accident or not, it was my fire, and that's why I don't like using the power." Foxstar didn't like sharing his past, it may have been stupid as ever. The tom's red eyes flickered a bit like a spark. He was serious when he looked at Crescentmoon, he was serious that if she told anyone, he would erase her existence, hers and her kits, without another thought about it. 493|| Words High||Muse None||Music Crescentmoon/anyone||Tagged

[♥Angel♥]

[atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=width,500,true][atrb=border,0,true][bg=90742f] Well that bit was kind of obvious. What ever happened has been kept a secret for a long time and she wasn't about to break that promise. She was a little miffed that he completely ignored everything else she said and tuned into only her last sentence. But she sat down and listened to her leader. She didn't say a single word during his speech just sat and listened. Though at time rage filled her and she had to bite back a hiss. Tigerstorm, she had never liked her. And now she knew why. That cat was evil and corrupt. Surely starclan would never accept her into their midst once she passed on. She had remembered the times she was training when Foxstar than Foxpaw had come in with burn marks. When he reached the part about his father and brother her eyes widened in shock. The fur on the back of her neck prickled. She had been told they where killed by a group of foxes. And that they had buried their remains there. All these lies, so many lies. From the feelings coming off of him she knew he would kill her and her kits if she spoke a word of this to anyone. Surely she had come to trust him by now. Foxstar I am so sorry." Tears where streaming down her muzzle. Why did he have to suffer so bad. "But that wasn't your fault it was that foul cat Tigerstorm's. If she hadn't harassed you all the time that never would of happened. Instead of encouraging you she put you down." Just like my mom. She had lost everything that day because of her mom. Her sister Star and her head been close friends. Someday she hoped to see her again someday. "You can trust me Foxstar I would never do or say anything that could harm or bring trouble to my leader. My loyalty is towards you and Starclan. As is your secret between Starclan and the few cats that know about it." 350 :WORD COUNT none :NOTES Foxstar :FOR medium :MUSE none :MUSIC

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[atrb=background,http://i48.tinypic.com/9v9hj6.jpg] "Tigerstorm has her reasons, and I'm sure she wouldn't want me disclosing her personal life to you." Foxstar said after Crescentmoon finished. The leader stood up finally, he had one last thing to do, one thing he would have to remember. As he flicked his tail, his head turned to Crescentmoon. "We are shadowclan warriors, weather we were once a loner, once a kittypet. Our lives intertwine, and in our reality we are the strength within ourselves. No matter who you once knew, or matters of who you will know, know that we are always a family to be looked after." Foxstar then put on a smile. "Now then" he jumped out of his den onto the high rock, in which he called to clan to him. As the cats gathered, he looked at Crescentmoon. "This cat has something to tell you, it is very important, and if I hear any prejudice, I will punish it so" Foxstar said it with a friendly smile as if it was easy. He turned to Crescentmoon, "Just tell them your stepping down from your position because of your assault, then I'll take over." Of course crescentmoon didn't know what the leader was planning, but int he least, he was going to give the kits the best future he could. 216|| Words Low||Muse None||Music Crescentmoon/anyone||Tagged

[♥Angel♥]

[atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=width,500,true][atrb=border,0,true][bg=90742f] "That may be true Foxstar but she needs to learn kindness and gentleness. But as you said it is none of my business." How could he defend that fox brained cat. After everything she did to him. She just couldn't understand him. "Yes we are all Shadowclan warriors. We are a family but not all cats act that way. Sighing she shook her head and padded out after Foxstar. When he called the clan together her ears flattened. Did he plan to tell the whole clan what happened? She swallowed nervously. She had never spoken in front of the clan before. He wanted her to tell them she was stepping down already. Why couldn't that wait until she found and trained her apprentice before stating it. Taking a deep breath she stepped forward until she stood beside ]Foxstar. "I'm afraid I have some bad news. I have decided that once I have found and trained an apprentice I will step down from being a medicine cat. And it is important that I find an apprentice soon. I'm sorry everyone." She lowered here head and padded back letting Foxstar tell the rest. Her tail dragged in the dirt. All her hopes and dreams she had since joining Shadowclan had been shattered. 220 :WORD COUNT :NOTES Foxstar :FOR Low :MUSE None :MUSIC

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[atrb=background,http://i48.tinypic.com/9v9hj6.jpg] Though events unfolded like they did, Foxstar knew it was hard for Crescentmoon, obviously she had taken dreams into being a medicine cat, and now, for them to be gone. Foxstar didn't know the feeling, he didn't even want to be leader, he only became leader because of his brothers wish, and that was something he kept close to him. The tom could never imagine being a medicine cat, since he already walked the path of a warrior, it didn't make much of a difference. The leader stepped onto the rock as he looked at Crescentmoon, he finally licked her on the top of her head. "No matter what happens, I'll protect you Crescentmoon, don't fear a thing, and please, try to remember, even if you won't be a medicine cat anymore, doesn't mean you have to throw your ideals away." He whispered into her ear as he turned to the clan himself. There were some whispers within the clan, his glare traveled for them to stay quiet, and as soon as they were, he flicked his tail. "As you all know, this cat has been assaulted, and you all are wondering what has become of that loner. Trust me, I have taken care of the situation, but I want to tell you all something. The only reason Crescentmoon finds herself unable to continue medicine cat duties, is because she is kitting." There was a few gasps between cats. "DISPOSE OF THE KITS" one cat yelled. Foxstar raised his voice. "There will be no such none sense, if any cat touches these kits to cause harm, or to Crescentmoon, they will be punished." He yelled, and the clan became silent. "These kits, will need a bright future, and for that to happen, they will need a father as well as their mother to support them. I will serve as that father. These kits will grow up knowing that I am their father and no other cat. And we all have to agree to this." One of the cats looked at the leader. "Foxstar is right, Crescentmoon has treated all of our wounds, has saved many lives, we owe it to her kits for a bright future." Foxstar dipped his head. "We as Shadowclan cats have a duty to protect our own." He said finally. 383|| Words meh||Muse None||Music Crescentmoon/anyone||Tagged

[♥Angel♥]

[atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=width,500,true][atrb=border,0,true][bg=90742f] Crescentmoon smiled weekly at Foxstar. "Thank you Foxstar," as she sat down behind Foxstar her head hung low. She didn't really hear what Foxstar said. She was thinking over their conversation earlier. When she heard a cat yowl kill the kits she flattened her ears and hissed. She stood up tall and proud. As Foxstar quieted them down she looked from cat to cat. When a cat spoke out for her she realized it was Stormfeather. He had been much like a brother to her. He was only a moon older and when she had joined the clan it was his mom that had adopted her into the family. She knew he would always stick up for her. When all was quiet she stepped forward. "Foxstar I wish to say one more thing" With out waiting for a reply she stepped forward. She forced her head and tail to be held high. "Cats of Shadowclan these kits though bred from a terrible incident are still Shadowclan cats. yes their father is a horrid and despicable cat. But they are only kittens. Would you take your anger out on the kits for something their father did? No! Just like you would not take your anger out on the kits of a Windclan cat that killed your friend or loved one. These kits have done nothing wrong. If you want to get revenge for what has been done to me I thank you. but I will not allow you to harm my kits." Turning she padded away not even waiting for the cats to respond to her speech. 273 :WORD COUNT :NOTES Foxstar :FOR Low :MUSE none :MUSIC

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[atrb=background,http://i48.tinypic.com/9v9hj6.jpg] Foxstar watched the she-cat and then dipped his head once more. He was, the leader of shadowclan, strong, hidden, smart. And he may have been one to hide behind a mask, but as long as he kept Shadowclan safe, what did it matter? The tom stepped forward and looked at the clan. "Crescentmoon's kits will know me as my father, and the rest of you will see it that way, I may not be her mate, or the actual father, but it's the least we can offer the kits." The clan muttered among themselves, but then, only nodded to their leader. Foxstar was relieved as well as thankful. 108|| Words meh||Muse None||Music Crescentmoon/anyone||Tagged

[♥Angel♥]

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